Isn't that how the song goes?
Well, the livin' is mostly easy around here. I'm a little worked up since my twelve-week maternity leave is almost up and back to the office I go next week, hi ho hi ho. I'm fine with the idea of going back to work, but it's taking my baby boy to daycare for the first time that has me in a tizzy.
I know, parents take their kids to daycare everyday and I just need to relax, but I'm having a hard time with this one. I've been with my little guy everyday of his life thus far and now I just drop him off at someone's house? And I'm supposed to be ok with this?
Maybe it's just the heat getting to me. It's 90-something degrees here this week and we don't have air conditioning. Don't feel too sorry for me, I actually like not having a/c. Without a/c, the contrasts of summer compared to the rest of the year are amped up. Our summertime lifestyle completely changes: what we wear, where we sleep, how we cook, what we eat. My kitchen is minimized to the grill and the blender.
Typically my hubby mans the grill, since he's a prototype male that gets his kicks from fire and meat. Meanwhile, I am the frozen fruit queen. Any slightly overripe fruit goes in a Ziploc and is thrown into the freezer. After a whirl in the blender, my frozen fruit stash turns into smoothies, milkshakes, daquiris, whatever.
But yesterday, tragedy struck. They say everything happens in groups of three.
RIP 6/25/09
1. Farrah Fawcett
2. Michael Jackson
3. My blender
During an experiment with frozen watermelon, my blender went out. I've emailed the blender company, hoping to get a replacement part (just need a new blade assembly, since it's now stripped out), but something tells me that I'll have to bite the bullet and get a new one.
Maybe it's because I'm getting older (although many of you will say almost 30 is NOT older), but I've become disenchanted with new things. I want my blender to last a long time. I want my clothes to last a long time. I want my car to run forever. I want patina in my life. Why must I trade my cellphone in every few years and suffer being laughed at by the cellphone store employee because my phone is "so, like, ancient"? Why is everything being made so you can't fix it yourself anymore? One part of my blender goes out, and I'll probably need to trash it and buy a whole new unit.
Blergh.
On a happier note, today is Friday, meaning Free Chocolate Friday! Mars is giving away coupons for free candy bars, satisfying my peanut M&M habit. Go to http://www.realchocolate.com/ and check it out.
Have frozen fruit and a functioning blender on hand? Try this.
Summer Fruit Milkshake
1/2 cup milk or yogurt
2 scoops vanilla ice cream
1 peach, cut into chunks
5 or 6 frozen strawberries
1 frozen banana
Blend it up, adding more milk as needed to keep the mixture moving. Enjoy!
My favorite post of yours so far! yay! So okay, it's TOTALLY normal to feel anxiety about taking Ben to the daycare for the first few times. I have a friend who practiced a week before she had to go back to work by giving her child to her parents for the day (or half) and she sat at home. Then she said it was easier when she had to actually go and do it. Perhaps easing into it like that would help? And yes I am feeling the same way now that I am in my 30's...totally want QUALITY items which means I have half of the responsibility to keep it quality (keeping the item clean and maintained). But I am really liking this sense of ownership...it's holding me accountable. Focus good feeling thoughts about Ben, daycare, and you heading back to work. Even if you have to fake it till you make it! Remember, things aren't forever ya know and you have the power to change your mind whenever you want! :)
ReplyDeleteMmmmm smoothies!!
ReplyDeleteOh, so hard. I call motherhood "The Divided Life, " and I don't think it's ever easy. When I'm home with my kids, I was I was somewhere else (though you seem like a more blissed-out new mom than I ever was) and when I'm at work, I wish I was with them. What I'm working on is just trying to be PRESENT wherever I am. Sending good thoughts across the miles. You can do it, and your baby will be fine :)
ReplyDeleteBen is adorable. What a sweet little bundle!
ReplyDeleteGood wishes coming your way as you start this new chapter in your life and become a "working mother!" I'm sure you will find the right balance between your job and family life, but it may not happen overnight.
You are kidding me. First, you have baby Ben on MY baby Ben's birthday, and then you have a peanut M & M craving TOO? My kicker is that I never really cared for them before this baby, even during the pregnancy.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with going back to work - very glad I never had to face that. Leaving my first in the church nursery had me in tears at least once.